been out of work, kinda strange not racing around to grind to a complete stop.
  strange being around young people, now that i'm in my mid-30's.  this chicky here is wearing iron maiden vans high tops.  would've totally gone for those back in 1984.
  been sitting at home watching youtube incessantly.  it's rather addicting.  
  reading david mitchell's "black swan green", sorta told in that holden caufield vein.  brings back some memories of those early eighties, which were rather horrorshow at best.  
  i'm thumbing through this zine on the underground scene in l.a., can't say there's even a tear to shed over that place.  
  a crowd of the walking dead young urban professionals amble past, a turning starts up in my guttywuts.  
  considering getting a silkscreen machine and making a stab at the t-shirt market.  that would be brilliant to not be reliant upon kissing up to assholes so that the world doesn't fall down.  
  yeah, it's august in seattle.  it's been exactly one year, can't says i have much to show for my endeavors but a pile of burnt cds, another mindless job to add to my c.v., a website, and a slough of rainy days punctuated by brownies from the hippie lady down the road.  hard to throw all my seattle experiences into a nutshell, but at best i can't find too much to say about the place that's encouraging other than people leave you the fuck alone, which only works part of the time.  the other part can drive you mad with loneliness.  
  so it's off to portland.  i've begun my jobsearch in earnest, no nibbles yet, but if memory serves correct, the last one took me something like 2 months.  i had a couple of shoddy jobs to keep myself up, but certainly not my morale.  
  i've been trying to process the whole military experience.  it's a gated community, with a few mad ghosts running about.  i knew it was doomed from the start, i was surprised how long it went on, given who i am.  at least it's all a bad memory now.  
  i was reading an article in newsweek where this chaplain was droning on about how his faith was being tested on a daily basis.  it raised the old question, "why do bad things happen to good people", which made me think, well it's really stupid people going into a fucked up situation having just what they deserve happen to them.
  if there is a god, then he's got to allow for our stupidity, but i'm sure it all looks pretty pathetic from the other side.